My Journey

Month: March 2025

  • avoidance

    I avoid feelingBecause it’s uncomfortable And I’m afraidBecause I don’t know how to deal withEmotionsIf I allow them to flood in.I don’t feel the emotion, So I can’t even name itBut I do feel it as a simple, primal commandRUN!RUN!!So I doI pick up this distraction deviceAnd disappear for hoursBrain off,Scrolling.Scrolling..Scrolling…When I take a look…

  • I watch, but I don’t

    I watch YouTube videos every day and every day I want to create a video and every day I don’t I have multiple ideas, even multiple scripts But I don’t I hate the way I lookI hate the way I soundI don’t have enough timeI’m not creative enoughI’m too oldI’m too dumbPeople that I don’t…

  • Reclaiming My Time

    I’ve been spending too much time doom/rage/mindlessly scrolling on social media. Today I finished The Chaos Machine by Max Fisher and even before I finished it I was cutting back on social media. It’s a well written, meticulously sourced book and left me feeling pretty bad about the amount of time and energy I put…