I watch, but I don’t

I watch YouTube videos every day

and every day I want to create a video

and every day I don’t

I have multiple ideas, even multiple scripts

But I don’t

I hate the way I look
I hate the way I sound
I don’t have enough time
I’m not creative enough
I’m too old
I’m too dumb
People that I don’t know and have never met will think I’m dumb
People I know will think I’m dumb

I’ll fail

Thats what I tell myself , every day

I torment myself with the idea that I could make something I could be proud of

I don’t want to be famous

I don’t want to turn YouTube into my career

I just want the feeling I get when I’m taking pictures and get one that I’m really proud of

But days go by and I don’t. I’m not saying that I won’t but for reasons I don’t know

I don’t