My Journey

Category: goals

  • On Life: As it is now

    It’s been a while since I’ve felt the need to post anything here. I’ve had ideas come to mind but they’ve been fleeting. I used to only feel the need to write when things were bad or difficult and lately things have been very good! I want to bring balance to my writing and so…

  • Good Things

    It’s been a good week! That’s really all I have to say right now! 🙂

  • Reclaiming My Time

    I’ve been spending too much time doom/rage/mindlessly scrolling on social media. Today I finished The Chaos Machine by Max Fisher and even before I finished it I was cutting back on social media. It’s a well written, meticulously sourced book and left me feeling pretty bad about the amount of time and energy I put…

  • Life Changes

    I keep thinking and writing about making changes in my life but I don’t do them. I know making big changes isn’t good for me even though it has worked out ok in the past. I feel like I have too much at risk if it’s the wrong decision. If I’m being perfectly honest I…

  • Uninspired

    I’ve been pretty uninspired in my day to day life for the past month or so. Everything has a dull tone to it, even things I regularly enjoy. These feelings come and go with me and have for many, many years. I have clinical depression and I’m not currently on any type of medication for…

  • Accountability III

    Things have been going pretty well on all fronts for me. I’m happy and terrified at that. Mostly because I’ve started really strong on various things and then, inevitably I drop off. That’s what I’m currently waiting for, the drop off. I don’t like feeling that way but it’s been such a constant thing for…

  • This blog sucks, and that’s ok

    I’ve struggled with perfectionism my whole life and I’ve written about not doing things I enjoy because I’m holding myself to a standard that I don’t really know and will never be able to achieve. Perfectionism is nothing but ego and arrogance imho. There’s no way anything I ever do will be perfect *especially* if…

  • Just Start

    I’ve dreamed of making videos for almost 9 years. Back in 2017 I started a YouTube channel about motorcycles and created a few motovlogs because that was the “hot” thing back then. Then, I stopped and never did it again. I really enjoyed the entire process that went into creating a video and posting it…

  • Accountability II

    I think it makes sense for me to make these accountability posts a series. Updating weekly feels very doable to me. In my last accountability post I laid out a few things I was doing. So far they’ve been working. The meal prep service is great and the food is delicious. I didn’t go to…

  • A 2 Post Night

    I didn’t intend on writing 2 entries tonight but I was going through my drafts folder and saw the last post and it’s still very true so I thought why not! Procrastination is still plaguing me, to the point I want to stop thinking about doing or trying anything because I know that I will…