My Journey

Tag: life choices

  • Life Changes

    I keep thinking and writing about making changes in my life but I don’t do them. I know making big changes isn’t good for me even though it has worked out ok in the past. I feel like I have too much at risk if it’s the wrong decision. If I’m being perfectly honest I…

  • Uninspired

    I’ve been pretty uninspired in my day to day life for the past month or so. Everything has a dull tone to it, even things I regularly enjoy. These feelings come and go with me and have for many, many years. I have clinical depression and I’m not currently on any type of medication for…

  • Accountability III

    Things have been going pretty well on all fronts for me. I’m happy and terrified at that. Mostly because I’ve started really strong on various things and then, inevitably I drop off. That’s what I’m currently waiting for, the drop off. I don’t like feeling that way but it’s been such a constant thing for…

  • Accountability II

    I think it makes sense for me to make these accountability posts a series. Updating weekly feels very doable to me. In my last accountability post I laid out a few things I was doing. So far they’ve been working. The meal prep service is great and the food is delicious. I didn’t go to…

  • Accountability I

    I think that’s what I’m missing. I can’t seem to hold myself accountable so I’ve asked a few friends to help me. I also signed up for some personal training sessions at my local gym. I enjoy working out but the hardest thing is getting there. Knowing that someone is there waiting for me, and…

  • Song Lyrics

    Today I’m obsessed with the lyrics from A Perfect Circle’s song Gravity. I think it has to do with the decisions I’m trying to work through that I mentioned in my last post. They just really hit home. Check out the video if you haven’t heard it. I’ll post the lyrics below the video. Lost…

  • Finding My Place In The World

    I’ve struggled with the direction of my entire life. I spent some time in the military and decided to do the full 20 and retire. Then I allowed others’ opinions to become my own and got out after eight years. I’ve had no issues staying at jobs for years at a time, but a lot…