My Journey

Tag: self-reflection

  • Do You Believe In Signs?

    Do you think stop signs are real? J/k. That’s not the type of signs I’m talking about. I’m thinking about signs from the Universe/God(s)/Higher Power/etc Lately my life has been a whirlwind wind of new experiences, new feelings and an amazing new person! All of these experiences have, of course, raised some concerns, doubts and…

  • Sonder

    I remember flying home for my dad’s funeral and looking out into the darkness and seeing all the headlights and lights from houses and wondering what the people behind those lights were going through. Were they having the best day of their lives? The worst? Or maybe somewhere in between? That feeling stuck with me…

  • nobody

    Nobody can hurt me,Like me. I know exactly where,To place the knife. Where to cut and,When to twist, To inflict the most pain. My mind is a bad neighborhood,A place, sometimes most of the time, even I don’t want to be. But it’s mine.For better,And worse.

  • Expecting … Nothing

    My anxiety shows up as trying to map every possible outcome of every decision I make. Meeting up with friends? I have to look at the route to the place we’re meeting, the parking situation, the possible conversation topics and plan out potential replies. When it’s time to go do the thing I’m so exhausted…

  • Good Things

    It’s been a good week! That’s really all I have to say right now! 🙂

  • Reclaiming My Time

    I’ve been spending too much time doom/rage/mindlessly scrolling on social media. Today I finished The Chaos Machine by Max Fisher and even before I finished it I was cutting back on social media. It’s a well written, meticulously sourced book and left me feeling pretty bad about the amount of time and energy I put…

  • Today

    Today I walked Today I ranToday I laughedToday I interacted with others Today I did those thingsbecause I couldbecause tomorrow, I might not.

  • New year, Same Me??

    The grind begins again. Another year where I say that I will make changes, but will this be another year, like all the past ones, that I don’t? I hope not. This will be the second year since Mom died, and I still feel as rudderless as I did in the months after she died.…

  • Overthinking, Over Analyzing

    I continue to be stuck in this loop of thinking about big life decisions, planning out how to implement them, getting discouraged, getting depressed, giving up and then restarting the whole process. I’m afraid. I’m afraid to make the wrong decision or mess up the right decision so I don’t make any decision which is…

  • In A Rut

    I’m stuck. My creative wheels are spinning and I’m not making any progress. I made my first “real” Youtube video almost 2 months ago and while I have ideas for more I haven’t taken any action to turn them into a reality. Every day that passes I beat myself for not taking even a single…