Life Changes

I keep thinking and writing about making changes in my life but I don’t do them. I know making big changes isn’t good for me even though it has worked out ok in the past. I feel like I have too much at risk if it’s the wrong decision.

If I’m being perfectly honest I don’t want to give up what I have now. I own a house, I own a few vehicles and I’m able to follow the rabbit hole of new hobbies. I don’t want to give that up for something that could blow up in my face. Am I happy with those things and that stability enough to just keep doing what I’m doing and not explore other options. I don’t think I am.

Over the last several months I’ve done a lot of work to define my guiding principles. With those defined I’ve found it easier to take smaller steps to align with those principles and, as my therapist says, live a life that’s more fulfilling to me. It’s working but I’m impatient and I feel like time is slipping away from me and I hate that feeling! In the past this is the time I would make a rash decision. For the most part my rash decisions have paid off and if they didn’t the fall out wasn’t that bad.

The decisions I’m facing now though have the potential to really open up a lot of opportunities but if they go sideways it could really destroy what I’ve already built. This is where being able to see the future would be amazing!

For now I will just keep chipping away and try to do something every day that gets me closer to the life I want to live. That’s all I can do. Hopefully, in time, the choices will become more clear and make the decision easier.