My Journey

Tag: self-reflection

  • Uninspired

    I’ve been pretty uninspired in my day to day life for the past month or so. Everything has a dull tone to it, even things I regularly enjoy. These feelings come and go with me and have for many, many years. I have clinical depression and I’m not currently on any type of medication for…

  • On Anger

    I struggle with getting angry over things that I have no control over. Things like traffic, others being late and most recently random power outages. I’ve been getting better at just letting those things go and not letting them ruin my day. This morning the power went out, yet again, and I was almost instantly…

  • Everyone Has A Story

    Years ago when my dad died, I was flying home for the funeral. It was night time and the view out the airplane window was just dots of light along with the glitter of street lights. I distinctly remember thinking that every house light, car headlight was tied to a person with a story. What…

  • Distractions From The Outside World

    The world is ever shifting and it seems daily we’re living in new unprecedented times. Personally, I’m so tired of the constant news cycle with one story being worse than the last. Everyone is so on edge, myself included. I’ve taken a step back from all social media sites and that’s definitely helped. I’ve also…

  • The Noise

    The Noise in my head never stops. Between the tinnitus and the constant thrumming of the “you suck” voices it’s always loud. I always have to have background noise on every where I go. When I’m at home the tv is always on or music is playing and when I’m out the AirPods are always…

  • A story about a book

    Last Monday I watched a random YouTube video on a channel I’d never seen before. A quote came on the screen from a book I’d never heard of. The object isn’t to make art, it’s to be in that wonderful state which makes art inevitable. – Robert Henri I bought the book based on that…

  • This blog sucks, and that’s ok

    I’ve struggled with perfectionism my whole life and I’ve written about not doing things I enjoy because I’m holding myself to a standard that I don’t really know and will never be able to achieve. Perfectionism is nothing but ego and arrogance imho. There’s no way anything I ever do will be perfect *especially* if…

  • Don’t Feed The Beast

    May is mental health awareness month, so let’s talk about it. In case you missed it in my previous posts, I have mental health issues. Mainly depression and anxiety. In the past I have taken medication for my depression but the side effects really outweighed any benefits so I stopped taking them. I’m currently back…

  • Song Lyrics

    Today I’m obsessed with the lyrics from A Perfect Circle’s song Gravity. I think it has to do with the decisions I’m trying to work through that I mentioned in my last post. They just really hit home. Check out the video if you haven’t heard it. I’ll post the lyrics below the video. Lost…

  • Comments? Life Changes.

    A couple of posts ago I wrote about “the good ole days” and it got a lot of likes, well, a lot of likes considering I haven’t been blogging on this site for very long. This time I’m asking for comments. I’m at a fork in the road, so to speak. I’ve spent the last…