The Inertia of Life

I envy those who seemingly make big life decisions with ease. There’s things I want to do, places I want to go and I just can’t seem to make them happen. I tell myself I should “just do it” but then talk myself out of whatever it was and I’m inevitably disappointed and regret not doing it. It’s a viscious cycle.

How does someone just make a big life decision and then just … do it? My last big decision was to pick up my life and move to a state where I didn’t really know anyone. I look back on that and I don’t remember being afraid or having any trepidation about it. I just did it. Why can’t I do that now? Am I just overly comfortable with the life I have now? That definitely plays a big part. Things are predictable and safe.

I started writing this post back in January of this year (2024) and never came back to it. I don’t really have anything else to add to it and I still feel the same way and I’m still stuck in the same cycle.

I do feel more clear headed and focused on the set of decisions I have before me. I’ve identified how I want my life to change and while I haven’t put the proverbial pen to paper I think by acknowledging the changes I want to see it’s the first tiny step to, hopefully, making those dreams a reality.