Just Start

I’ve dreamed of making videos for almost 9 years. Back in 2017 I started a YouTube channel about motorcycles and created a few motovlogs because that was the “hot” thing back then. Then, I stopped and never did it again. I really enjoyed the entire process that went into creating a video and posting it but I just never did it again.

I was(am) so afraid of making a fool of myself, negative comments from people I’ve never met and generally just being “out there”. I’m also very hard on myself so if something isn’t “perfect” then I don’t want to do it or even try it. I don’t even have a standard of perfection to assign to whatever it is that I’m doing!

I’ve got videos playing in my head that I want to make. I’ve written down stories that I want to tell and I can see them playing in my head all the time! I just can’t put myself out there to make them happen.

That mindset is changing, albeit slowly but it is changing. I’m in my mid-40’s now and more and more I realize that I can’t put off my dreams. I could die or be incapacitated in an instant and never get to do them. This applies to travel as well. I’m so damn afraid of getting out of my comfort zone that it really is holding me back from doing anything other than existing.

I’ve existed for far too long. I have to start living. But how? It’s so easy to say or type that down and I’m like “yes, today is the day” but then I just do my same routine day after day after day. It’s so exhausting.

I see the final video in my head and get overwhelmed with the number of steps that need to happen to get to that final product.

Step 1: Just start.

Step 2: Make progress.